underneath-that-smile

a new chapter.

2011-07-12T16:48:00.002+08:00

a new chapter.

so, i've obviously left this space for quite some time already

more than half a year!

i've been having moments where i just want to blog everything out

good, or bad..

but i just always wanted to leave this space

and always got lazy to do it..

so now, im finally getting down to it

and moving on..!:)

here's to a new space, and to better beginnings! xx

losing faith

2010-12-14T23:49:00.004+08:00

losing faith.

with each day passing

im losing faith.

living in denial

of a miracle.

hopelessly waiting

shunning

hiding

blocking

denying

i'm growing fatigue.

it's too much,

and i dont want any of it.

ANY OF IT.

why cant everything come to a standstill?

this time not cos i wanna embrace what is now,

i just want to get away from every single fucking thing,

every single fucking person.

i want to fast forward to something better.

shit happens,

and i cant deal with it, i'll admit it

this time, i'm just not strong enough

have you ever felt useless, unworthy, just simply not good enough

no matter how hard you've tried?

you just cant do anything right? or it's never seen?

im sick of deluding myself.

im sick of living in pure denial

im sick of trying to live in oblivion,

when the facts are right there

staring in my face.

im confused,

im troubled,

im hurt,

stabbed, tortured, tormented, mind-fucked

lies, deceit, false fronts

i just want to hide in some corner.

i just want to be in a shell of my own.

i just want to escape.

i dont want to have anything to do with anything or anyone and i just want to crawl away.

i just need silence.

i just want to leave.

i just dont want to be tormented anymore.

everything's a joke.

my life is a pure fucking joke.

the walls are slowly crumbling

and im just a victim waiting for the walls to collapse

nothing.is.fucking.the.same.anymore.

what.the.fuck.happened?

why doesnt someone just tell me what is ahead of me?

cos right now,

its just all a mess

all a blur.

i just want to leave this fucking planet.

dead end.

2010-12-07T00:31:00.002+08:00

dead end.

i've come to a dead end.

a dead end for everything that is revolving around me..

i surrender,

i give up

i am tired of everything.

i.just.want.to.breathe.

i just want to be happy again..

it's tough hiding under this hard exterior,

and i feel like i'm constantly crumbling as the days go by.

it feels like it's pitch black,

and im finding my way out of this mess.alone.

goodbye.

372 ♥

2010-10-26T00:48:00.002+08:00

372 ♥

so yes its been 372 days of being together with THIS AWESOME BOY!:

(exactly one week from being a year together!)

and all i can say is:

thanks for making the past 365 days so awesome and wonderful!:)
(you know the rest!:)

im not perfect, im not awesome, im not great, im not special..
BUT YOU ARE!

ily! ♥

when i see your face,
there's not a thing i would change
cos your beautiful
JUST THE WAY YOU ARE! ♥

♥ ♥ ♥

(THIS POST SO CHEESY (meltzx and stickxz), BUT IDC IF THE WORLD JUDGES! I LOVE YOU!:))

time is running fast

2010-09-17T02:27:00.004+08:00

time is running fast

clock's ticking,
time's racing,
and all i can think of is you.

for a moment,
i dont know what i want anymore.

tell me.
show me.
reassure me.
i need to know./

everything's moving so fast, i cant keep up

2010-08-26T07:40:00.002+08:00

everything's moving so fast, i cant keep up

hello world!

time passes really really fast!
like its exams next week!
!&!^&!%^@%#@#

havent even studied pls.
zomg.
kill me alrzxzx.

anyhooxzx.
just some retarded lame updates

sat.
lh came down to meet me after workkk
thennn omg i cant rembbbzxzzx oops!

sun.
SLEEP IN DAY:D
had a heavy breakfast thenn
we went out!
got koi!:D:D:D
(the boy finally heartzx heartzx koi!)
thenn to marina areaxz
he got new shoes:Dvery preets!:)
and i bought a ring -.-
ikr shoe vs ring:(
feel damn sad i cldnt find anything else to buy zzz
thennn we met dadd for dinner at chatterbox
thennnn homeeeeee
the boy stayed overr:)

mon.
worked.

tue.
worked.met the boy!stayed overrrrr at his:)

wed.
no workkkk for the both of us!:DD
went to bpp for macs lunch! (tsk stoopid nehneh boy!still sick and wna eat mcspicyyy allll >:()
went to my place to get some stuff
went to get tickets for the expendables
walked ardddzxzxz
watched our moooooviee
got sushi!:D
went homeee!:)

so hence, as you can see,
my life pretty much revolves around work.

D:
which would be an awesome explanation for my horrible exam results:)
when we secretly all know..its just me!D:

and oh yess!
MY STOOPID HAMSTER : PEANUT
KEEPS ESCAPING FROM THE CAGEEE
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

kkkkkkkzxz
bye world!

acid tears.

2010-08-16T22:16:00.005+08:00

acid tears.

i miss how things were.
i miss how things werent forced.

why is it that all good things cant remain the same?

If it meant anything can it be so easily forgotten? If at one point in time it was every thing you ever wanted, lived for, loved, how can the magnitude of it shrink over time and eventually feel like it never existed?

i wish i could turn back time so things wldnt be like this

i wish my 11:11 wishes would come true

i wish, i wish, we could go back to the old us.

i wish, i could do what you want, but im not strong enough, and perhaps, im selfish.

(i'm sorry)

i miss you baby.

i miss our times together.

i miss us back then.

:'(

some things never change,

and by that,

i mean my love for you.

(as cheesy as it sounds, its all true..)

its going to be 10mths soon..300days.

no one wld have thought tt we wld last 300 days

maybe it died halfway..

idk what's going to happen next..

i just know..

i love you alot.

more than anything else :'(

i love you baby

and i miss you a whole lot

this past 24hours :(

especially now:'(

jump, tumble and slide

2010-08-03T17:39:00.001+08:00

jump, tumble and slide

jump, tumble and slide
this is a real wild ride

let your waves crash down on me and take me awayyy

2010-07-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

let your waves crash down on me and take me awayyy

I DONT KNW WHY THE HELL IM BLOGGING
when i got convex fuckign test tmr
AND HELLO so not near done!

D:
and wahlao if i cld jst pass advert when i cld UNDERSTAND AND STUDIED IT
and it was lesser chapters
i thnk i can totally jst repeat convex next sem alr
FML.

zzz
seriously
no motivation at all.
kill me alr.

all things aside.
there doesnt seem to be much confusion
idk what im doing
im jst doing it
i seriously think ive got issues
and..
how can i be like this!?
idk
and im too tired and lazy to think at all
hence,
my conclusion is IVE GOT ISSUES.
yes.
have you got any tissues for my issues?:(

i was thinking of..
well..thinking and settling these issues
aft these hell weeks are over..
but i cant not help bt do anything meanwhile
which might lead to undesired consequences
sigh.
and ive a feeling i still dnt knw what i want and what to do.

life is bleak
give me gummy bears!
rawr.

okay.seriously
and i suck.
why the fuck was i tired at like 8plus pm jst nw?!
and im gt tired again aft like buying my soyabean -.-

i think its called
PRO-CRAS-TI-NATION.
A NATION THAT PROCRASTIS
omfg.
that wasnt even farney.
phail.
oh well.
AS YOU CAN SEE
I AM PROCRASTINATING
SIGH
*SLAPS SELF*
ha!
not going to! im not that dumb!

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

it takes a few wrong turns..

2010-07-26T11:05:00.002+08:00

it takes a few wrong turns..

it takes a few wrong turns to realise
that in the end
my heart still lies there
all for you..

:(

at the end of it all
i know that..
you still mean the world to me
and my world revolves around you.
and i want it to remain this way
months down..
years down the road..
for as long as it will last..
<3

iloveyou and i never once did stop loving you...

the shine of which has caught my eye

2010-07-25T12:07:00.002+08:00

the shine of which has caught my eye

CONVEX EVENT IS FINALLY OVERRRRR
WOOHOOO!
yessss!:D

but that also means report writing and grades.
this is bleak.

sigh.

i just realised this morning that im turning another year older in a week.

and sigh,
it makes me sad knowing that
im another year older
and somehow it feels like
so much more is expected of you kind of thing..
oh wellxzz.

life is bleakxz.

and my "orh-cheh" is very huge and hugly and brownie-ishhhhyzxz :(
i is very sad:(
*sobs*

i look so retarded with my bruise
bleh.

and sigh,
as if work wasnt enough to kill meeeee
and cause me sleepless nights
not cos im doing work
but cos im thinking of how screwed i am
and cant seem to sleep:(
....
there are still so many other things on my mind..

sigh.
now i kinda miss it
when there was no drama
and when its all peaceful

you cant have everything you want.
and in life
we've got to make choices,
but this if well one of the hardest choices ive got to make..

SIGHHHHHHHH.
going to do some major revamp.
or at least i think imma do so..

GOGOGO
2 MORE WEEKS
I CAN DO IT!I CAN DO IT!I CAN DO IT! :(
no, i cant:(:(

*sobs*

hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption

2010-07-23T13:51:00.004+08:00

hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption

you look like a stripper hereeee!hahaha <3

nomxz nomxz chocolates:D

nomzxnomzx green tea goodness
love you babe!<3
im always here remb!:)

hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
winding in and winding out
the shine of it has caught my eye

and roped me in
so mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
i am captivated

hello space!
im sorry i abandoned you for so long yet again!

YES!
A FEW WEEKS MORE TILL SCHOOL IS OVER
days please faster passss!

on a sidenote im feeling sad
tt i cant celebrate my birthday cos of sch
SIGHHH D:
majore sadness yst night when i realised*
*sobssobs*

life has been pretty bleak
cos school is nutsxzx

omg seriously cant wait for school to be overrrrr
although i still dnt knw what is my attachement
GETTING RATHER ANNOYINGZX
zz

work has been okay..
the occasional angst due to some annoying people
bt still i survived without explodinggzx

plus work = money
though i have hardly been working cos of
school
HATE.SCHOOL.
SCHOOL SCHMOOLZX..
zz

ah.
in short cant wait for all of this to be over.

and seriously.
random bt i need to stop eating so much crap
yeapp
fatsomes much.

okay nothing else much
have been listening to the spiderman songsxz
like suddenly i jst felt like listening them.
yes very random but makes me happs.
so dont judge.
rawr.

and yes,
all good things in life are wild and free!

bye world!:)

i'm off in another world so far out this atmosphere

2010-06-23T11:18:00.004+08:00

i'm off in another world so far out this atmosphere

HELLO DEAD EMPTY SPACE D:

this space has officially died!

sigh.

been too busy to even have ME time

and hence, i decided to have LAZY PIG ME TIME today:D

instead of being hardcore and working HAHAHA

hmm..

here's a brief update of what happened in the past 3-4weeks!

1. got my NEW MAC LAPTOP:D:D:D - very very very very HAPPY:D

2. got a FREE IPOD TOUCH that came with it - pretty happy about that too! its called TOUCHTOUCH, wanted to call it tom, but it was too random a name!what if i met some guy called tom and he was insanely annoying!?HENCE.hahah

3. dad got me a platinum credit card -:D:D but aye aye ive been a DAMN GOOD GIRL and havent even used it at all k!mwahahaha!thats also basically cos i knw once i use it...i will NEVER stop.hence.HAHAHA

4. the boy and i went to the IT FAIR, i know, GEEK MUCH. well, he wanted to get a mouse and i wanted to get some casing for TOUCHTOUCH and my lappie - and in the end i spent like 100bucks plus, and he didnt spend a single cent! BUT WHO CARES im very happs cos i got a pink casing for touchtouch and my lappie! veryvery PREETS cos its pink!:D and a pair of audiotechnica earphones, they're blue though, idk why i got them, they just looked cute.and oh yeah cos the ipod touch casing came with a free mouse i gave it to lihai!and surprisingly its a pretty good mouse! and FYI spending 100 bucks at the IT Fair doesnt make me a geek k!GRRR ROOAR.

5. first week of the holidays was pretty much spent meeting people and hanging out - THUS, town is very boring to me now! -.- oh yes did a mani and pedi! idk why this is blog worthy but JUST CAUSE it MAKES ME HAPPY!HAHAHA

6. the other day at work, i got starbucks and MILK PAN!very happs. for like 30mins BUT NEVERTHELESS. MILK PAN!it was piping hot bt i left it there and worked..then i went i ate it it was cold -.- whatever!

7. oh yes the other day. like quite sme time back enna and i tried sogurt!and she doesnt seem to like it, though she finished hers and i find it pretty nomzx bt i didnt finish mine -.- anw! point being its pretty good! GO TRY!

8. yst enna and i had KOI KOI KOI KOI KOI hehehe! tried the hazelnut one, its pretty good, tastes like coffee.bt once again, i didnt finish mine.i think im too used to sharign food/drinks with lihai..hmm..OH YES speaking of which HE DOESNT LIKE KOI! why not!?!?!GRRR

9. oh yes, a few weeks back, when i bought starbucks A VENTI GREEN TEA SOY LATTE, boss bought ernest and me KOI! and it was the LARGE ONE. omg, in the end i didnt even finish both. at this point, ENNA would think I SUCK. :(

10. oh yes, more about food -.- so lihai and i bought muji marshmallows that day AND THEY ARE SO YUMXZ YUMZX and the other day i bought jelly beans from candy empire, and like wtff i think liek 3/4 of the flavours are damn gross grrr CHEAT MY MARNS

11. YES IVE BEEN EATING ALOT. stop judging grr!

12. started playing pokemon again like a few days back!cos i managed to save the games now!HAHAHA.

13. STILL IN NEED OF CLOTHES.grr why does topshop not bring in more pweety clothes alrD:DAYMN.no clothes for school once again.grr

14. caught shrek in 3D a few weeks back, fucking knn tickets so eggspensive.but 3D IS AWESOME!and yest lihai and i caught karate kid:D hehehe the boy in the show was so cuteeeeeeeee!

15. OH YES!have i mentioned that lihai and i have hamsters now!yes for like about two months!

lihai named the boy ah ham (see lihai is a closet ahbeng!) and the girl's called peanut! cuteness muchhh!:DHEHEHE

and thats basically it!

my life has been pretty much surrounded with FOOD:D

I MIGHT GIVE THEM NAMES SOON!

like koi will be called koikoibubs.

and..uh idk alr lah.

BLEH.

its gna be back to school on monday _|_FML

zzz

its gna be even more crazy and hectic cos its the second half of the term.

BLEAK.

cant wait to get this sem over!

rooaar.

k thats pretty much all!

that was then, and this is now.

2010-05-28T23:38:00.003+08:00

that was then, and this is now.

change is the only constant in life.

but what if i dnt like change?
what if, all i want is something
constant, never-ending, lasting
and which
no matter what happens,
whether its the strongest of winds or
the largest of waves,
it will never erode..?

i hate change.
thats a fact.
then,
is it possible for me to leave things constant,
and not let any changes happen?

i dnt want to be making the same mistake over and over again
im tired of heartaches
and,

in short,

the only constant in life that i want, is your never-ending, everlasting love.

- like an everlasting gobstopper!

hi,
ITS BEEN 220 days,
and i still love you very much..just so you know..

before its all too late

2010-05-13T00:09:00.004+08:00

before its all too late

i love you..
and i still do..

thank god,
that kiss came
and you held me from leaving
before its all too late..

im still hanging on every hope
that this will last..
and i believe it will..

i.love.you.

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown
Solid as the ground we've known
And I just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up
And even in a desert storm
Sturdy as a rock we hold
Wishing every moment froze
Now I just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can't shake us
Cyclones can't break us
Hurricanes can't take away our love

acid rain

2010-05-10T10:57:00.005+08:00

acid rain

it was pouring.
it was acid rain.

then came a prism of colours,

and now,
its just fogged.

i wish i had wings like a bird

2010-05-09T00:00:00.004+08:00

i wish i had wings like a bird

i wish i had wings like a bird
so i can fly
and escape from the harsh reality
that's engulfing me.

if only..
too many ifs,
leave us with disappointments :(

469; 46828
is loving someone a crime?
if so, im guilty as charged.

lets escape into the dark, just you and me baby

2010-03-24T10:52:00.008+08:00

lets escape into the dark, just you and me baby

PICS FROM ESCAPEEE!

we travelled all the way from cck to tampines
WHICH IS VERY VERY VERY FAR

the sun was blazing hot
bt we had fun!:)

PIRATESHIP.CHOOCHOOTRAIN.FERRISWHEEL.GOKARTS. and more!:)

had lots of VO-ING fun:D heeheehee!

however, there were very little rides:(
and the choochootrain went wonkyyyy so we cldnt go again:(
sobs
and the pirate shippp is extremely scary:(
like i was closing my eyes 3/4 of the time:(:(
and the burger king there is a SCAMMMM!
bt it was still superly fun:D

and yes, we have deprived childhoods
bt then again, i wldnt have wanted to go with anyone else bt you!
esp on the scary pirate ship!:)

xoxo

never been better!

2010-03-06T13:28:00.019+08:00

never been better!

newyorknewyork!

SENTOSA:D

pics from cny and vdayy and our fourth month!:)

ily!<3

perfect two.

2010-03-06T01:09:00.003+08:00

perfect two.

You can the peanut butter to jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can can be the captain
I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that's I feel on our first date

You can be the hero
I can be your side kick
You can be the tear
That I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin
Or u can be the sun when it shines in the mornin

Don't know if I could ever be
W/out u cause boy u complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie
Your th straw to my berry
Your the smoke to my high
And your the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you for u (for u)
U take th both of us of us (of us)
And were the perfect two

Were the perfect two
Were the perfect two
Baby me and you
Were the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as were together

Don't know if I could ever be
W/out u cause boy u complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause your the apple to my pie
Your the straw to my berry
Your the smoke to my high
And your the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me for me
And I'm the one for you for u
U take the both of us of us
And were the perfect two

Were the perfect two
Were the perfect two
Baby me and you
Were the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya

I love the way that u smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause your the apple to my pie
Your the straw to my berry
Your the smoke to my high
And your the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me for me
And I'm the one for you for u
U take th both of us of us
And were the perfect two

ily<3> (no matter what happens.)

like a meandering river

2010-03-02T02:33:00.002+08:00

like a meandering river

oh yes,
i see where you are now..

delightful aint it?

it sure seems so..

it was never easy..just so you know..
look at how our lives have turned out for us..
maybe its all meant to be..

happy days,
sad days
days you wanna scream in excitement
days you wanna shout in despair

days you wanna bask in the sun and all its splendid
days you wanna fly free and escape

life was never easy..
so what makes you think now is better than before?
so what makes you think it will get better than before?

what makes you think there will be an after..
after all of this..?

cause you are the only exception

2010-02-21T23:13:00.004+08:00

cause you are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream
You, are, the only exception

thanks for always being there love!:)
<3

if its worth having, its worth fighting for
at least thats what ive learnt for the past 123days and counting:)
ily!

will updateeee soooon!

all the same to me

2010-02-12T09:47:00.006+08:00

all the same to me

I won't run
When the sky turns to flame
And I sure won't budge
When the earth does shake
When the flood comes up
I will dance in the rain
'Cause it's all the same to me

i knew i wouldnt forget you and so i went and let you blow my mind

2010-01-12T14:38:00.007+08:00

i knew i wouldnt forget you and so i went and let you blow my mind

HAPPYYY 19TH BIRTHDAYYYYY LIHAI!<3

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEE
HOPE YOU HAD AN AWESOME POSSUM BIRTHDAYYY:D

tuesdayy
soo the night beforeeee his birthdayyy
hehehehehehe
i planned to surpriseee him
which he sadly kinda guessed!

sobsxz:(
bt it still workeddd!
gastronomia cupcake and a posterrrr and polariods!
sorry thats all i cld think offf:( (hope it was enoughhh!)

so was earlaye ended up stoning at the staircase for 40mins
nearly dieddddd
cos i was super sleeepyyyyy:( and hungzxz

anwww
hehehehe 11:59 cammeee and ehehehe

*knock knock* on someone;s window
WHEEEE
HEHEHE
kind eggcitingggg even though it was for him not for me
bt wtheckkkk!

anw ended up staying overrr at his houseee
went down to eattttt cos i was being a pigggg
then we went uppp and crasheddddd

it was fuhriggin like 1 or 2 in the morning
and we had to wake up at liek 7 -.-

wednesdayy
sneaked outttt of his home the next morning
heheeh sneakyyy sneakyy
anwww sent him to schoool
then i went home
showered changeddd

met himmm in schooool
and we went to pizzza hut for lunchh
supposed to have pizza
BT we ended up having other stuffs
haahahah wtf right

anw went for class while he stoned and waited (sorrs:()
thenn we went to crystall jade for dinnerr
ordered so much food
we were almost like pigs

surprised himmm with a ballooon
see even if your 19 you can still be a kid!:D:D
hehehe

anw bussed to cck
bought dinnner for his bros and chillledddd
thennn home!

saturdayyy!

the secret surprise lunch!
so everyone was lateee
and in the end i slacked and stoned at home more
and became lateeee

and his present was in this massive boxxxx
so ended up cabbing from home to meet PS
sorry i lied tt i took a cab cos i sprained my ankleeee
while jogging lol haha
and omg
the worst thing is
LH bumped into his group of friends
who were gonna surprise him
OMG.
NEARLY DIED.
but thank the lordddd
he didnt guess it wld happen
hehehehehehe
he got fooled into thinking we were gna have
swensons for lunch
BT NO!

HAHAHAHAH WRONGGGGGGGG MY LOVE!
AHAHAHAH
sooo hehehe his surprise was astons

SORRY FOR MY ONCE AGAIN FAILED ATTEMPT TO
guide you while you had your eyes closed!
i cant multi-task for shit sake:(

anwww hehehehe TADAAAAAAA
eyes open and all
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEH
awesome possum surprise with his friendsssss
so ate etcccccc
then it was prettaye hilarious
cos his friends
junjie and kaihsiang pretended they had to take a dumppp
when actually they were helping to collect his swensons ice cream cake

and they took awhilee
hehehe and once again his friends let it out
tt they were getting the cake on top of
revealing abt astons and all
BT BT BT
EVERYTHING STILL BECAME A SURPRISE
HEHE

nom nom nom
ice creamm cakeee was yummzx

anww aft lunchh munchh
we walked arddddd
and in the enddd
ending up going to cck to put down his presenttttt

chilled
and thennn we left for dinner in the eveninggg
brought him to ichiban boshi at suntec
became really really full after like a meatball

went to the fountainnnnnnnn
and took peeektures:))
thennn homeeeeeee

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ILY!
hope it was an awesome possum 19th birthdayy!:)

HEARTHEART♥ ♥ ♥

its 5.4.3.2.1, baby your my only ONE!

2010-01-10T00:26:00.005+08:00

its 5.4.3.2.1, baby your my only ONE!

starlights and paradise
waves in motion
the crowds are passing
but all i see is you&me.

lets move past beyond this
to somewhere
a wonderland
just you&me.

just, you&me.

one turbulence over the other
one wave crashing after the othert
tell me
never give up baby, and well get through it,
together./

so the day before xmas eve - 23rd dec
spontaneous decision to join go clubbb

so bussed down from cck to home
showered changed
met enna and all at butterrr at 1030 ish
queue was longer the the great wall of china
we ended up going to rebelxz

finally clubbed aft 9million and 3 years! YAY!
:D
rebelzx was okay bt im sure butter wld have been more awesome.

anw next morning lh and i bussed to my home
bathed changed etc
then to his homeee

we crashed in the mornzx
slepttt
woke up rather late
stoneddd

we went to eat late lunchhh then went over to lot oneee
to get ingredients for our pignic! hehe
we prepareddd food for our pigniccccc
nom nom EGGS!
and i cooked pasta
nomzx nomxz

ate with his brotherss and watched some teevooo
then we leftttt
bussed down to ecp
which took 9million years

mad crowded.
so annoying.
anw.
it was a pretty awesome night
till some hiccups
bt no matter..
we texted each other our resolutions for 2010
cos like no paper haha
and then we counted downnn
and YAY
I GOT MY NY KISS<3

thanks so much for staying in singapore!
so that we cld spend the holidays tgt and spend NYE AND NY TOGETHER:D
<3

we caught the sunrise together..
a little different from expected
bt i am more than grateful:)
thanks love..i appreciate it alot:)

bussed back to his home
crashhhed in the morns.
woke up
and we had a little sentimental moment..
and :) all i have to say is..
thanks, i love you so, and
i'll treasure everything even more from now on:)

anw
that hungry bafoon
went to eat without waiting for me _|_

bt its okay i still love you:)
stoned watched teevo
and omg seriously
lh you need to get cable lah!
normal teevo is boring after awhile ahaha

then it was dinnnerr timeee
was supposed to go down for dinner with
lh and his bros
bt his daddyy came backk
so we ended up ta-paoing

which took 9million years to come
and thenn we went back up
ateee and watched teevooo
chilled in his room to good musicccc
and according to what he told his brother
" we were staring at each other"
hahaha

someone still scissor kick me all
_|_

yeah anw aft tt was homeeee

nye/ny, was
well bascially
goodbye to 2009 and hello 2010

rough start, bt hey
things change
and im sure it'll be better:)

SIDENOTE: CANT WAIT TO FINISH MCM YEAR 2!

all i want for christmas is YOU

2010-01-10T00:00:00.003+08:00

all i want for christmas is YOU

so this post is rather long overdueddd

well basically spent xmas eve and xmas with lh!

so met love<3>
had brunchhh at fareast
then we bussed to secret locationnnn:D:D

exchanged prezzies!
i got him some topman longsleeveeee
made him some heart thingum which was supposed
to be a snowglobe bt failed bt it still turned kinda kewlz k
and oh yeah MINI gatsbyyy hehe

and the awesome possum boy got me
my polariod which is PINKK
and instax:D
WHEEEEE
and and omg he wrapped everything himself
like first time wrapper then still wrapp till so niceeee
omg CAN GO EARN A LIVING WRAPPING PRESENTS!
AHAHAHA

nuahed and chilled the whole day
a little hiccups
bt it cleared the air:)

throbbing headaches
bt we went for super late dinner at macs
nom nomzx
walked along roaddd
where there were lots of RATHER ANNOYING people
screaming and spraying those snow and colorful streamer thingums
FCKING ANNOYING CHILDISH AND GROSS.
well anw

it was midnight!
and i got my xmas kiss:D:D<3
hehehe

well anw..aft tt we walked backkkkk
to secret locationnn and then i was hungerrrzx
so the awesome possumxz boy
went down with me again to go buy
chilli crab cup noodzx noodzx
which is the awesomeest shit

so yeah i wanted to eat proper food
so we walked in an attempt to go to sme hk cafe thing
bt it was like 3/4am and it was closeee:(

so we walked backed to get my cup noodxz
anw after getting it we went backzx
bt bt bt
i forgot to get chopsticks -.-
so hehe lh went down to get them for me
SHO SWEEETZX <3

wheeee
aft eating we chattttedddd then we crashhhhhhhed
<3
bt it was still awesome possum! <3<3

XMAS DAYY!
woke up next to boyfriend!<3

went to mos burger at ps for lunch
nomzx nomzx

then went back to my home to pt stuffs downnn
then we went to cck
so he cld help his mommy do stuff and pt down his stuffs
then we bussed to townnn to meet his friends

and we got caught in the stoopid rainn and
went into ion fuhreezing cold
nearly died.:(

so we walked and walked
and then left to go eat dinnnerrr
then met his friends again
and we played with the toys at like taka
which is kinda funnnnnnn

and that was my awesome possum XMAS EVE AND XMAS<3

and its TWOOOO (part TWO) - SO LETS IGNITE

2010-01-02T10:34:00.007+08:00

and its TWOOOO (part TWO) - SO LETS IGNITE

oops the peeks are in opposite orderrrr:(

so so this was on tues the 22nd!
which is also part twoooo of our 2ndmth!

so so so met lh in the mornzx
we went to eat first cos we were both hungxzx
and then we walked ard

went to cine to get smthng i needed to get hehe

thennn his surprise began!

so first up was bringing him to go pierce his ear!
hahaha
everything happened really fast it was kinda farney

thennn aft that we bussed over to beauty world
so that dope cld eat his nomnom noods
which were spicy spicy
bt thank god we had sugercane juice NOMZX NOMXZ
and that was part twooooooo

thenn we bussed to marinaaaaa
and shopped arddd
then part threee of his surprise came!

we went to get one of those WHITE BALLS thingum that they place
during nye in the waterrrrr
so we got the tinyyyy balll
and started writing our wishes:):)

and after that we rushed to townnnnn
hehehee
and came the last part of his surpriseee
which was surprisign him with movie tickets in his wallet
:):)

k so my surprise not as awesome as hisssss so kinda phail:(
SOBZXZ SOBZXZ

and its TWOOOO (part ONE) - SO LETS IGNITE

2009-12-19T22:32:00.011+08:00

and its TWOOOO (part ONE) - SO LETS IGNITE

so its finally TWOOOO months
k not finally, cos time did pass rather fast:)

mthsary was on the last day of school which made things even more awesome possum!

so aft i was done in sch
bumped into eugene and alan
and bussed down to cck with them

(AWESOME catching up with the meatball, though it was for awhile only bt still:))!
(i still remb k! your fave colour is purps!)

anw met lihai!
and i got TWO PINK ROSES:D
for two months
heheheeh
in some cool spongebob wrapping!

and like he bought us sme matching phone key chain thingies
while he was roaming lot one waiting for me:D:D

then we trained down to JP
to do the icing cake thingum
which is so gay
cos cos
i also planned to do that with him for this mthsary

TELEPATHY MUCH!

oh right
bfore that,
we walked pass this stationary shop thingum
and he bought me my planner
YAY YAY YAY!
SHO SHO SWEETSZX

then then
he was like asking me if i wanted to eat ding tai fung
cos he cooked..bt he didnt think it wld be nice or enough or what
bt
NOOOOOOOOOOOO IT WAS..(will talk abt that ltr!:D)

so we did the cake thingy:D
and bought the heart thingy specially
COS ITS SO FREAKING KAUTE!:D

after whichhh whn we were done and roamed abit mre...
and oh yeah!
he got us matching anklets!hehehe:))
thennnnn
we finally made our way to ecp
AND FINALLY GOT THERE AFTER 9MILLION YEARS

so so
we settled down
and ate the food that he cooked!
:D:D
hehehee
sho sweet!
though it was almost all frozen foods like
SHRIMP DUMPLINGS - WHICH PRIOR TO THAT DAY HE ASKED ME IF I LIKED COS HE OVERHEARD ME TELLIGN I CANT REMB WHO THEY ARE REALLY NICE AND I LOVE TO EAT THEM - HE FREAKING REMBBB:DHEHEHE
NUGGETS - COS HE KNOWS I HEART HEART MACS NUGGETS!XP
and thennnnn

HE COOKED PRAWNS
YES COOKED FRESH TIGER PRAWNS WITH EGGS
AND PEELED THE SKINS OFF
OMG OMG OMG
SORRS.
bt NOT MANY GUYS WLD PEEL PRAWNS FOR GIRLS RIGHT
idk at least i didnt expect him to:)
and EGGS cos he knws I HEART EGGS HEEHEH

and and
AT THE END THERE WERE STRAWBERRIES!
and he SPECIALLY PLUCK OFF THE LEAVES!
liek he didnt need to do that bt he did:)
and THEY WERE THE UBER SWEET KINDS
nt the sourish ack kinds! HEHEHE

then we ate the cake
felt super fattt from ALL THAT CREAM!

omg and i need to add on that he pt them in tupperwares
THAT HE JST SPECIALLY BOUGHT!!!
they were PINK AND PURPSSSS
like cos i like pink and purps!
HW SWEET IS THAT!!

anw we attempted to chillll
when this grp of kids were really noisy
and running ard us
and he suddenly told them to fuck offf

FIERCE.
bt kinda sweeeettt cos at least he wanted sme "peace and quiet time" with me:)
hehe

anw he planned to do smthgn for me
so i went to 7-11 to get stuffs so he cld
have the time to do it

it was like really sweet cos like
he lined rope so that it spelt : " I ♥ U" and set it on fireeeee
though it didnt really wrk out it was stilllll sweeet:D

anw DOOM came
it rained
so we sought shelter at BK
and chilled
and when the rained seemd to stop
we went out and it rained again:|
so we stoned
and it was basically a whole
move in move out situation
:|

there was one pt
we attempted to jst sit in therain and cover ourselves
with the other half of the mat
which was quite kewlxz and fun
till the rain got heavier:|
zzz

so morning came
WE FAILED TO SEE THE SUNRISE COS OF THE DAMN RAIN
and went to macs
BIG BREAKFAST = YUMS:D

aft that we being the hardcore ppl we are
(hahaah what a joke!)
went over to sentosa
in an attempt to tan
at cafe del mar

bt bt bt
ONCE AGAIN
it freaking rained
so we barely tanned
and ended up stoning/fallign aslp
while waiting for the rain to stop

when it stopped
we went back to vivo
and walked ard...
and soon
illness and discomfort
came knocking:(:(
felt like crapzx

bt lh though really tired
was being really nice
and took care of meeee:)

thanks thanks so so mch!
so we were gna go to
tanglin starbcks
where i cld rrest mre
cos he didnt want me to go hm yett
when i was sick cos then
"he cantt take care of me"

so along the way
WE SAW 313
AND IMMEDIATELY
MY EYES LIGHTENED
AND I GOT EGGCITED!

and felt slightly better
STORY OF MY LIFE.
i feel better when i see shopping malls -.-

so yeah we got off went to taka
then 313
walked ard the freaking crowded place
for awhile
and then he sent me home:))

THANKS THANKS THANKS X9MILLION AND ONE!

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy <3<3<3
it was an awesome possum 61 days being with you:)

♥ ♥ ♥

meet me halfway

2009-12-15T22:02:00.005+08:00

meet me halfway

last week of school!
so freaking happs:D:D:D

wheeee!
so weekend was semi-awesome!

friday.
woke up and started on comm is essay..
yes, on the day of the deadline itself
THEREFORE, if i dnt do well, i knw why:|

anw handed in the goddamn shit
and wentt shoppping with LH!
YAY SHOPPING:D HHEHEHE

saturday.
worked at zoukout'09
selling hotdoggies and what nots
NO HOT PPL
OR RATHER
NOT MANY AS EXPECTED
music was not as awesome as expected
zzz

sunday
so anwww
ended wrk at like
9am ish
got home
and crashed at 10ish

cldnt even sleep props!
zzz then met LH!
he surprised me near home with xlbssss
wheeeeee:D:D
thenn we went to tanglin mallll to eat them xlbs
i got my FIRST EVER LETTER
k maybe not, bt i count it as THE FIRST LETTER!
and he made me two bracelets:D yayyay!

so anw,
an attempt for him to study failed big time
and we went shopping
and when all the shops closed
we went to newton to have supper!
STINGRAY AND CHICKEN WINGS
HEHEHE
IM A HAPPS GIRLXP
then we walked back to townnnn
and went to bucks at wheelockkkkkk
and he studied and i stonedd
TILL THE NEXT MORNS
had hashbrowns from macs:D

got home at 7 and crashedddd

monday
so went to bed at 7ish right
woke up at 10ish
rushed to schoool for web d
ended class
discussed shit
out of schoooool!:D

tuesday
lect fucking day
fucking retarded and terribxzxz day
went out aft sch with enna to town!

wednesday
stuck here at the goddamn student plaza
under the sweltering hot sun!

fucking warmmm
fuck I&E
and okay sigh
im hungs!
:(:(
sobsssssss

more than enough

2009-12-12T13:57:00.011+08:00

more than enough

Let's pretend baby
That you've just met me
And I've never seen you before
I'll tell all my friends
That I think you're starin'
And you say the same to yours

And oh, we'll dance around it all night
And then I'll follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it's so funny
Let's just think about it, honey
Let's just fall in love again

I'll call you in three days
Not too soon, not too late
And I'll ask your roommate if you're home
You call me on Thursday
And we'll hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone

And oh, I'll hold your hand when we drive
And we'll lose track of all the time
And we'll tell everyone
That we ain't never felt so alive

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it's so funny
Let's just think about it, honey
Let's just fall in love again

We'll fall disgustingly fast
And we'll stop hangin' out with friends
And they'll be so offended

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it's so funny
Let's just think about it, honey
Let's just fall in love again
Let's just fall in love again
So, let's just fall in love again

it may not be all smooth-sailing,
bt i still want to
be there on the same boat as you
and lets just see where it'll lead us to:)

55 days and counting!
school holidays are coming!
xmas
and new year!
I CANT WAITXD

[never been happier, nothing's gonna stop me now!] ♥

let the flames begin

2009-12-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

let the flames begin

What a shame
We all became such fragile, broken things
A memory remains just a tiny spark
I give it all my oxygen
To let the flames begin
So let the flames begin

Oh, glory
Oh, glory

This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is what will be
Oh, glory

Somewhere weakness is our strength
And I'll die searching for it
I can't let myself regret
Such selfishness

My pain and all the trouble caused
No matter how long
I believe that there's hope
Buried beneath it all, and
Hiding beneath it all, and
Growing beneath it all, and...

This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing out
This is how we'll stand when
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be
Oh, glory

Reaching as I sink down into light
Reaching as I sink down into light

its that month of the year..
the one i look forward to
but which i dread deep down

cos it holds memories after memories..

i feel like stabbing something now

oh and the abstinence failed

i feel like a muah chee and at the same time
liek one of those rattan balls
just cos i feel like a ball
and
i feel like life is so fucked and too complicated

roll roll
i want to roll down a hill

and now i shall stop my nonsensical blabbing
and jst retreat to my dark cold abyss.

all i have is time, our love's the perfect crime ♥

2009-12-01T01:39:00.006+08:00

all i have is time, our love's the perfect crime ♥

edit/

WHEEEEEE
LH jst bought me xlbs and laksa from holland!
yay yay yay
much lovessss

hehehe
HAPPS HAPPS!

:D:D

THANKS THANKS WHEEE WHEEE!
ILY!

44 days&counting!:D:D:D

when forever died

2009-11-30T22:55:00.002+08:00

when forever died.

you were the stone in my life,
the leaning pillar.

you made me stronger than before.
and now,
i thank you for all those
lessons learnt

when forever died,
came 'goodbye'
i know you'll do good
and now i say goodbye,
with a smile
and no regrets.

i think about those resolutions we made
on new year's eve..
i realised there wasnt one abt forever.

and i cld say
im now content.

i hope all's well and good in yours.

so stand close to me, don't sail away baby

2009-11-20T10:27:00.008+08:00

so stand close to me, don't sail away baby

FIRST AND FOREMOST!
i finally got my new phone - which i have temporarily named: NO-NO like nokia
hahahahaha lawl.
WOOHOO
which speaking of which HAS DIED ON ME
:(:(:(
the batt went flat
i feel so damn sad and disconnected from the rest of the world:(

sobzxzxz

kk
anw

so lack of updates
due to sch being a huge ass bummer
liek mother fucking bummer.

going brokeee due to excessive money spending on starbucksss
and FOOD
omg
I SWEAR IM GROWING FATTER AS I BLOG THIS.

so other then sch,
everything has been more or less good!

:)

i'll let the peektures do the talking:)

I WANT TO GO WHEEEEEEEE
bt omg im too tired to even do anyth.
like.
fcking shagged.
like fcking been sleeping three hours daily
and finally last night i gt to sleep 7 hours
BT EVEN THATS not good enoughhhh

k so bye world,
CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAY COS ITS PH!
woohoooo

then its back to wrk again
I CANT WAIT FOR THE TWO WEEKS BREAK
it will be xmas and all
WHEEEEEE
so happs jst thinking abt it

AND OMG SIDE NOTE.
i think ive gained weight.
FEELINGZXZ EXTREMLYZXZ INSECUREEEEEE
sobs sobs:(

lies and deceit

2009-11-12T09:28:00.005+08:00

lies and deceit

ive a hatred for this world.

i swear to god.

somebody somewhere is
out to get meeeeeeee.

cos life keeps screwing up for me

for eg
monday sucked balls
the conference was major borezxz
and saw us camwhoring and
going in and out
rushed to web d
was completely lost
had yongzxz for lunch finally
LIKE FINALLY.
aft 9million years
then met LH we chilled for a little
then went homeeezxz
i slipped and fell in the toils
and now iive a major bruise on my hip
and my knees hurts:(
sobs

tues
was lect day i regretted nt bringing my lappieeee
went to town with sonia
good gal pal time
we haddd tofu burgerrr and avocado cheese
HEALTHY RIGHT?!
bt still theere was like
a truck load of shit on my minddd
sighhhh

wed
things were okay
kinda fckeddd
i felt out of my zone
and nine million thoughts were racing in my mind
bt LH made things better:)
we went to watch this moovie that was hilariously farney
and yay:)
made my virgin 11:11 wish on 11th nov:D i sure hope it comes trueeee!

TODAY
fcking late for school
cos the bus took nine million years to come
and then took nine million years to move
see.THIS IS HW LIFE FCKS ON ME.

edit./

KELWYN CHAN THIS IS FOR YOU! THANK THANK THANK
for going to get me crystal jade
which might i add included
TWO sets of xlbs and and la miennnn

wheeeeee fck yeah i am a super happy girllll
woohooo this totz makes up for the entire week
being a major bummerrrr

woohooo wheeee:D:D

as the skies turn to grey

2009-11-12T01:44:00.002+08:00

as the skies turn to grey

some days i doubt..
bt yet..
i still take the chance

the chance
the gamble
of being hurt all over again

and i ask myself over and over
why am i so foolish

the answer,
you should know..

i jst hope..
your not another
and..
you'll just prove me wrong.

i'll leave when the wind blows

2009-11-11T10:18:00.003+08:00

i'll leave when the wind blows

459 ♥

469/996:(

4987976!
i want to see you right now..

24 and counting:))

shoo monday blues

2009-11-09T20:25:00.002+08:00

shoo monday blues

today has been the epitome of all monday bluesss

sigh.

so,
once again
school sucked fucking balls.

and
within the last say..hour..
well k not jst today..
ive been thinking about stuffs
and sigh..
life truly has a way of fooling with me.

once again,
i feel that void deep inside.

i try to ignore it and
i try to mask it.

bt on those dreary bus rides
and
those moments where i lie awake in bed
i feel the whole world crashing down on me yet again
and over and over again
like waves crashing in
and folding over one another
enveloping that sadness and fear
that madness

yet again
i find myself wanting to
avoid all of these
and hiding away from the rest of this world
that has served no purpose bt to hurt and vindicate
that has caused jealousy and anger
that has caused all the sadness.

its funny,
really it is.

how you feel like
your on top the tallest mountain
for a second
and the very next,
youve been entrenched
right down to the bottom
and you burn
and burn
and sometimes you just rather
end it all, once and for all.

fckk this shit.

the stars lean down to kiss you i lie awake and miss you

2009-11-07T00:57:00.004+08:00

the stars lean down to kiss you i lie awake and miss you

doubts.
why cant we do away with them?

how come nothing ever seems to be enough?

i feel so small
and insignificant.

hi,
take me with you and lets free
shall we?

if i could stop time
i will
if i could make everything pause
and let all come to a standstill
i would
only do one thing...
be there next to you.

you bring me to the highest
and
you drop me to the lowest
will this be the longest?

the wind blows

2009-11-06T11:36:00.006+08:00

the wind blows

live, and let live.
soon.
lets fly free.
lets leave.
lets escape all this.

time heals all wounds.
i'll just wait for them to.

there's no way out, i gotta hold you somehow

2009-11-04T22:05:00.015+08:00

there's no way out, i gotta hold you somehow

469
996
459
45954
4597436
4982993
:)

im counting the days!:))

baby are you down down down down down

2009-11-03T14:31:00.004+08:00

baby are you down down down down down

so school has started
and its week 3
come on holidays faster come

sch has been mundane and bleakk
thank god for ppl like
MY BFFFFZXZX SONIA
MY PIMP Eugene!
RACHIIEEEE
ENNA
BJORN
ZAYAR
JOSH
DIYANAH
DINESH
WOHOOOOOOTS

k i cant remb who else in sch that has really been making my daysss
bt yes
:D
school has beeeeeen krazyyyyyxzxzxzxzxzz

i seriously wld have died without these awesome possum ppl!

and of course it wldnt be better without AHEM *Coughs* hehehe DINODINO!
:)

halloween weekend was.erm.
not halloweenish
i didnt celebrate halloween:(
SOBS no candyyyyxzxz
bt it was well spent with LH:)

oh and on friday
lh and i caught love happens
OMG
DAMN BOREZXZ
dnt watch!
i thought it wld be like sme drama romantic shit
at least of a standard of my sister's keeper!
bt no!

in PR LECT now
majorly boringzxzx
and i feel like sleeping
YAWNS YAWNS

everything's moving so fast
and
everything's so surreal

let's take this dive
and i hope you'll be right down below
and for more than awhile

when love takes over

2009-10-28T10:52:00.004+08:00

when love takes over

when love takes over
you know you cant deny./

updates:
school has been mundane and in one word BLEAK.
the sem has just started bt we alr have so much shit to do
and its HALLOWEEN WEEKEND!
SOBS.

in any case,
IM STILL HAPPY:D

i couldnt ask for a better place to be

2009-10-24T23:43:00.004+08:00

i couldnt ask for a better place to be

♥♥♥

knocks you down

2009-10-23T10:27:00.007+08:00

knocks you down

ive reached pit bottom
and i hope all of you are happy.

trouble thoughts
rising tension
hidden emotions

ive tried,
but im sorry i cant go on
i can barely breathe
and
i feel like letting go

you've got a secret smile and you use it only for me

2009-10-18T19:54:00.014+08:00

you've got a secret smile and you only use it for me

edit/22oct

wed/14oct

so enna and me went tanning at cafe del marrrrr

this time THE SUN WAS UP!:D:D
hahahah awesome possums
THOUGH, for some reason,
we didnt seem to grow very much darker *sobs*

LOOK AT THIS COUPLE
GOING TOUCHY TOUCHY ALL TSK TSK
the woman wldnt sit down since the time she arrived
she kept dancing nonstop
then when she FINALLY sat
like aft like half and hour later
the sun went away
THEN ENNA SAID MAYBE
the woman was doing a SUN DANCE
hahaha
SO WHEN THE WOMAN DID DANCE
the SUN CAME OUT AGAIN
hahaahahhaa
so enna said we shld give her 20 cents before we leave
HAHAHAHAH
fucking epic
anwww

afterwhichhhhhhh
like at 6pmm we left
and wanted to go showerrr
bt del mar's toilet has no lockkkkk
SO AHAHAHAHAH
due to enna's insecurities..
we walked all the way to palawan beach to showerrr
dont worrs enna i still heart you!:D

thenn we had pasta mania for dinnerrrzxz
and shopped at vivo
WHICH FAILED
we bought nothing
*sobs*

then we went over to cityhall
walked ard and stoned while waiting for sons
sons came, ann khay and friends cameee
then we left for butterfact

so the queue was masssiveeeeee
and there were no more lockers leftt
so we jsut chucked our bags beneath the dj console

thenn ermzxz
what else..
oh we met ryl and annkhay there too!

butter ended
so ermmmm
we went to macs
and had brekkie and stoned till the train came

thurs/15 oct

so went home
didnt really crashh yet wasnt tired for sme reasonnn
crashed an hour laterr...
fucking irritated cos ppl texted me all at 10
anw whateverrr
woke up at 11
in a fucking bad mood
cos of sme ppl being such fuckign irritants

anw,
met the meatballll at ps
HE WAS LATE.
tsk.
thenn i vented on himmm
(which was fucking awesome thanks heart!)
thenn ermzxz
we wenttt to get the room
we had our usual long chats :)
(which btw meatball i appreciate A WHOLE FUCKIGN LOT)
thenn
went down for PRATS
(which i was cccrravinggzxzx for nine million years! k lah two weeks)
GOT MY MUSHROOM CHEESE PRATA
and when that happened
J CALLED.
so, picked up. call ended
2secs later *BLOOP*
fuckmylife to the core.
BIRD POOP*sobs*
went to paradis walk walk
I SSAW THE FUCKING SUPER FUCKING CUTE ACTOR
k fuck i dont knw what his name is its smthng like KIERAN or smthng
HAHAHAH
whatever fucking CUTE HOT FUCKING NICE TAN
fucking DROP DEAD GORGEOUS
k stop judging me
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEH

k whateverrrr
bjorn calledddd
so we went backkkkzxzx
showered the pooooop off
thenn we watched some MJ thingy and MILK!
heheheheeh
(i remb what i was doign during milk! *buzz buzz* hehehee)
HAHAHAHA

anw
we went for late dinnerrrrr
back to the prats place cos bjorn wanted prats
so instead of prats
i got roti johhnnn
and we CAR WATCHEDDDDD AGAIN
ahahaa
naise naise
then walkd over to paradis to
get sme AC-AC-ALCOHOL

backkkk and we playedd
indian poker and blackjack
those motherfuckers suck core
HAHAHAHAAH
:D
fucking royal flush twice in a row
TAKE THAT BITCHES!
_|_

HAWHAW HO HUMS
k anw
we crashed after watching another mooooovie
and bjornnnn mofooo crashed even before the moovie ended
had sme enlightening talk with meatballl before we finally sleptttt

16oct/fri

so we wokeee up at like 11ish
checked outttt
went to plaza singggg for burger king
thennn rushed homeee
dumped my shitzxzzx
rushedd back outttt to meet sonskabonzxzx at cityhall

shopppped till 7ish
went homezxzx
PLONKED ON BED.
felt like dyinggzxzxz
i swear
staying out too much and rushing here and there
is not good for the soul mind or whatever you call it!

sat/17oct

so woke uppppp
met J at 1040ishhh
HE WAS LATE
TSK.
went over to fareast for CHICKEN RICE:D
thennnn we walkeddd to get yami yoghurtt
anywayy accompanied him to studyy
while i was on my lappieeeee
starbucks didnt work for himm
so we shifted to toapayohhhh
then he sent me home at abt 5ish
due to last min plansxzxz

so...
met LH at 730
like super last minzxz canzxz tskek

anwww...
as usual we walked ard town like fools
hahah oh and we got tickets to my sister's keeper
was gna watch imagine that but since
they were showing it....DUH!
HAHAAHAH

so we had sakae for dinner again
back at wheelock
WHICH WE WALKED TO
ALL THE WAY FROM PLAZA SING
cos we went to get a mat from daiso

anw
GUESS WHAT
WE DID SME SNEAKY SNEAKY STUFFXZXZ
hahaha cos the last time we were there i was saying
we cld trick them and order the kiddy meal via the comp
and by then it wld be too late for them to not give me my kiddy meal
SO SO SO LH DID THAT
he went to click the AEROPLANNEEEEEEE one
whooooots
FUCKYEAH
i got my kiddy meal
HEHEHEHE
so fucking happs i swear
I FELT LIKE A PRINCESS:D
KEEKEKE

anw..we walked morezx
then we finally watched the moovie
FUCK. i teared k
FUCKING TOUCHING
go fuckng watch it!
ITS LIKE A GREAT MOVIE

anwww aft the moovieeeee we bussed over to ecp
found another spottttt
where we cld see the sunrise this timee

the stars were out really early this time
cos there were no clouds
BUT there was no moon
HAHAHAAH and the sand at this spot wasnt as nice
HAHAHA

anw!
we finally got to catch the sunrise properly
its prob the first sunrise that ive watched
that has risen properly and all that
PREETS MUCH!

:D
school has started
and boy oh boy its been a week!

so leave it behind cos we have a night to get away

2009-10-13T15:49:00.013+08:00

so leave it behind cos we have a night to get away

wed/7oct

so ermmm met enna for some
SHOPPING:D:D
YES YES
thenn we trained to amkk
she went to workkk
and i went to visittt an awesome friend
who was sick:D
thennn went homeezxzxz

thurs/8oct
met my superawesome sonskabons!

went over too cineee
got some froyo from herrr
then we went off to shop!
oh oh and we finally at shilinxzx
THE FUCKING SEX.
:D
OH AND THERE WAS THIS CHINA WOMAN
who kicked a cattt!
LIKE WTTFFFF
k random.anw.
ermmm we went to check out the prices for her tatt at flyback
thenn i went to trim ma hair (it looks like crap btw!:()
at night she brought me to this
dessert place at bugis!
ITS CALLED AH CHEW'S
ahahahah and we had this:

some chilled steamed egg dessert thing!:D
fuckyeahawesome

and its so cool cos like along that street
there was this pub
call BEAVER'S
ahahah and its like
we were MEANT TO BE BFFS!
ahahah its like
YOU KNW CHEW (sonia nicola chew)
and BEAVER all on the same streeet
HAHAHAHA k fine you wldnt get ittt!

fri/9oct

met bjornn at suntec!
*coughs* someone was late and made me wait
like one hour plus for him at bucks!
tskkekk
anw had shilinzxz againn
thennn walked ardd
collected his payyyy at tiongbahruplazaaaa
we went to catch 500days of summerrrr
thennn ermm we had dinner at mos
then chilllllllllll
home!

sat/10 oct
met J in the mornzx at bishannzxzx
we had kwayyyy chapxzzx for brunchh
chilleddd and talkkeeedddddd
over milk tea!
and yami yoghurttt!
heehee
♥
thenn sent him homeee!
went home
and resteddd and watch ANTM!
i was simplyyyy too tiredddd!
met LH in the eveninggzxzx
we got tickets for paper heart
thenn erm walked ard town
I WAS HIS TOUR GUIDE
hahahaa hilarious
stoned at wheelock
which he believed me, and though the place
was made up of wheels and locks!
ahaha
had late dinner at sakaeeee
walked ard mree
got frolick!
WHICH HE ALMOST DIED ON!:(
*sobs*
thenn we caught paper heart!
its really nice!
like, it makes you think abt stuffs..
though k fine it was like 1130 when we watched it so like
bby thenn i cldnt think much
HAHAH
and that bugger stole myy cardigan and said i was fat!
and still complained tt he was freezing after :|

anwww
we walked overr to PS
to take a night riderr to ecp
miraculousy
we happened to drop at the right stop
and made the right turns!
so we got there reall fast
and on the way to 7-11
we saw this super cute kitty
AND THAT ASSWIPE
didnt want to catch it for me!
it was so cuteeee lah
it was following us for awhile bt stop!
:(
and omggg
youu shld hear the toaddds croak
its so farney

anw, we finally got a tablecloth from 7-11 and waterrrr
and then we found a spot and nestled
HAHAHA
the sand was so fun!
like in btwn your toes and all:D
with the waves crashing in
it made me think quite abit..
thank god i was a little sleepyyy and didnt end up emo-ing mch!
HAHAHA
soooo besides all the sand kicking here and there
the stars finally came out at 4/5am!
like aft he got rid of sand in his eye
and i went to the toils
(which was 9million miles away and i didnt knw i had to pay to go in bt i still got away with it:))

anw
THE STARS WERE SO PREEEETS:D
like so many stars in the velvty sky!

oh and its really farney how i won
and push him off the mat:D
HA! GIRL POWER
and when tt just happened
AN ANT BIT HIM!
hahahaa and i was like talking abt ants biting him earlier on!
lol!
and it was near his arseee
HAHAHA
anw, by then, the sky was brighteninggg and..
THE SUN CAME OUT!
well it was quite a phail viewwww cos
the trees were blockng and stufff
bt still:)

so we leftttt
shared a cab and home!
CRRRRRASHHHHHEDDD.

sun/11oct

so met the boys at 5pm at orchardd mrttt
we went over to queeens
WE HAD MEATBALLS AT IKEA:D:D
and friend chickenn and they got hot doggies:D

NOMMERZXZX YUMMZZX TO THE MAX:D
we wentt over to queeens
got new fbts!:D
thenn we decided to go to townn to chillxz

we stopped at PS
and walked all the way to shawww
got milk tea and chilled at MOS
HAHAH
we laughed abt nine million things on the bus
that i cant even remb!
bt it was srsly hilarious!
thennn we nomaded to macs at forummm
and talked abouut lifeeeeee
HAHAHA
naise.:D

kk i will updateee more in the next posttttttt:D

in for the thrill

2009-10-13T15:02:00.002+08:00

in for the thrill

back home from a run

its pathetic.
not a long run
cos it was like jogging sprinting
but
fcking exhilarating.

:D

i think i get what J means by
he likes running cos it makes him feel tired..
idk
it makes me tired BT HAPPY.
hahaha

anw
last min plans
J called:)
no more REST IN DAY for me
gonna meet J later:D

vanilla twilight

2009-10-12T01:36:00.005+08:00

vanilla twilight

im having the butterflies in my tummy
and adrenaline..
and more wondering..

i know this is another phase...
is it..?
i think it is..
yes it is.
it shall be.

GRRR
i cant believe
i even want to say 469 to you

i think im insane.

someone i knw just twittered this
"as much as i wna keep my distance, i crave for your company."

WOW.how apt. IM FEELING THIS WAY.
its kinda farney knowing how your not the only one in this world
who feels like this...
i feel more normal
HAHA

ANYWAYY UPDATES BELOWWW SCROLL DOWN
will update more soooon

21 guns

2009-10-10T18:13:00.003+08:00

21 guns

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

everything is wearing me down.

and, i silently watch by the side..
how is it that
none of this
even bothers you..

how is it that
everything collapsed

or maybe..
one by one,
those building blocks
were coming down
and what happened
was an AVALANCHE.

maybe its cos
im scared and afraid
i cant bear to hurt another
so words keep coming out

i think its better left
unsaid.

and i feel like taking off let me be your SUPERNOVA

2009-10-08T13:20:00.013+08:00

and i feel like taking off let me be your SUPERNOVA

EDIT/ 10oct

HARRO.
much to be updated:D
hehehe
I'LL TRY TO RECALL!

got to head out soon though to meet LH!

friday2oct
so.
what did i do..
omg cant remb.
k
remb!
hahaah met bjorn at fep
we went to get our piercingszxzx
he pierced his ear
and i pierced my navel!
KEKEKEKE

scaryyyy but eggciting much:DD
oooooohhhh AND I GOT
STRAWBERRY MEJI MILK AND FAMOUS AMOS:D:D
hehehe

anywayyyyyy dont knw where we went..
i think we went PS!
got like daiso mat and like SUBWAY SANDWHICHES
hahaha i got the meatball sandwhich:DD
yeahhhh then pigniccccccc at botanicsssssss
thennn homeeee

saturday3oct
MET J AND KANG FOR BREKKIE:D:D ♥
hehehehe
so met J at orchard mrt first...
then we bussed over to SERENE CTR
we thought we were gna be late..
but turns out..
KANG WAS LATER
hahah what a fag!
MHMMM
haha I GOT TO DIP MY HASHBROWNS
in MAPLE SYRUP AGAIN
YAYY
SO HAPPS
J TRIED IT AND THINKS ITS NAISEEEE
i think.
ahahahah
ANW.
we were so zzz
we didnt knw where to go!
we didnt even have island creamary in the end
SO WE DECIDED TO BE RETARDS
and bus to town
until we saw a nice interesting building to go to
or the plan was to ride till the end
ahaha IN THE END
we stopped at heerennnn
so lame.
OMG.
went hmv and walked ard
the place was so deserted
IT WAS A BLARDY SAT AFT
zzzz
THIS IS SO SAD COS HEEREN USED TO BE THE IT PLACE
back in like when i was pri6
zzz
HAHAHA
anywayy...
we ended up walking to the place in btwn erm
centrepoint and ps...
yeahh they played a round of poool
PRETTAYE FARNEY I GOT TO SAY
first time i didnt get bored
ahahha:D
NAISE:D and i knw why bt im nt telling you why
HAHAHAAH
then we...
walked and stoned more
AND DECIDED TO BUS TO HOLLAND:|
hahaahha it was raining lightly:(
and we had COLD ROCK!
heheh
BUBBLEGUM ICE CREAM WITH GUMMY BEARS
(gahh im so missing spending time with the both of them right now..)
thenn we went over to KANG'S extra home..
ahaha we went down to ntuc gt ingredients and cooked PASTA:D
hehehe
nomnomnom
KANG IS GOOD AT COOKING
haahah
and those asswipes still think i cant wash dishes_|_
I PROVED THEM WRONG OBVIOUSLY
:D
HEHEH

thennn erm we chilled abitttt
listened to them sing and play guitar..
AND IT REMINDED ME SO MUCH OF THE PAST:(
i missed us back thennn:(:(

edit/11oct

(so finally home and awaken from my sleeeeeep..
shall update abt it in the next postttt...)

ANW
as i was saying..
yeah so uh..
aft tt J had to goooo
so we left...
and stoopid KANG lazy to climb stairs all
so J and i went opp to take a bus..
sent him back home...
thennn erm
bussed homeee
cant rembbb but i think
i was so shagged i jst stoned at home..

sunday4oct
spent the day at homeeeee
stoneddd and for some
blardy reason i was really tired...
zzz
met eugene in the eveningggggg
to get his storybook
HAHAHA
then he was so eggcited abt the
bubblegum ice cream with gummybears
and asked me to bring him thereeee
so we went to holland hahaha
had nasi lemak for dinner:D
andddd COLD ROCK

bubblegum ice cream with gummy bears:D

honeycomb and butterscotch ice cream with freckles

nuahed COS WE RAN OUT OF TOPICS
to talk about
BUT WE HAD A VERY INTERESTING TALK! *WINK*
HAHAH
thennn uh.
we were in the
we-wanna-hang-but-we -dk-what-to-do thing
hahaha
so ended up getting ac-ac-acalcohol
and nuahing and laughing abt random shit
i cant even remb what!
zzz cabbed home

monday5oct
stoneedddd in the day....
met J for dinnerrr
we went to newton and i got phad thai
SO FUCKIGN GOOD.
k not as nice as the ones in bangkok
but it suffices:D
thennn erm stoned and waffle
and read some storybook!
YES A STORYBOOK.WITH ACTUAL WORDS
(ive been doing tt quite often recently!haha)
anywayy yeahh
thennn he ended night studyyyy
and sent him backk homeeeee
busseddd home and there was some
creepy angmoh guy on the bus
WHO KNEW ANGMOHS CLD BE CREEPY!?

tuesday6oct
so was up earlaye
went over to amanda's
uh we stoned till enna cameee
thennn erm enna came we went down
to pick herrr uppp and get lunch
thennn went up ate, and started
BAKING!:D
hahaha PREMIX FTW:D:D

aft baking we went to bake..
GET IT GET IT!?
BAKE.
k nevermind
but blardy hell so cloudy no sun
it failed but yeahh

jaccuzied a littleee..
thenn uh showered..

dinnnerrr at amanda's
then we all left...
enna went for tuition (hardcore all!)
and amanda and i went to town to shop
AND MY OH MY
having NOT SHOPPED FOR A WEEK (YEAH I CANT EVEN BELIEVE IT:|)
(cos i was out with guys the entire past week and guys suck..)
I TOTALLY WENT NUTS
AND BOMBED MARNS:(:(

K SHALL UPDATE MORE IN THE NEXT POST.
too much in thisss entryy
its making me dizzzyyyy
zzzz